I love my friends and closed ones fiercely, not liking when they are put down by others. Even though most of them do not understand why or what I do or did, it all doesn't matter. If I keep thinking daily why did this friend or that closed friend not understand I am already being tormented adding on to the tremendous stress on my already weakened physical body.
Why is life this way? Why am I being treated this way? Why won't they share their lives with me more?
These 3 questions will never get a satisfactory answer. Why? What right do I have to make each and every person revolve his/her world around me? What right do I have to demand people? What right do I have to want to know each and everything about everyone?
The same goes for myself, why should I keep tormenting myself this way? Etc etc.
Let go, let it all go Daniel Yoleh Chang Wei. I trust in Him, when I am fitting on my bed, on the train, in the shopping center, He is my Refuge, my Strength, my Salvation, my Love and my Protector.
God is good. Praise the Lord. Amen.
